You leave me SPEECHLESS...

说了再见，才发现再也见不到。。。

我想你了爸爸

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

11:58 PM

人，必须要成长
也许是磨练得不够多，才会有错愕。冲动，沮丧。。。
计划和梦想再一次被打乱（真的很乱）的时候，只能怪自己做得不够好？还是没有烧香/祈祷？
唔。。。想这些也于事无补，应该想的是该如何面对

正面思考，正面影响身边的人
正面思考，正面影响身边的人
正面思考，正面影响身边的人

催眠与念力，真的。。。有用吗?
我。。。真的不知道

P.S.
如果每天都被幸福围绕
那就不叫人生，那叫天堂

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

10:13 AM

i must be firm!

i have to tell myself everyday:

i am not staying here, i am not belong to here.

get ready tey ai yun!

this is where you belong

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

11:52 AM

i never liked a cat.

T.T

why???

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

9:21 AM

没事了没事吗坚强得太寂寞

脑袋空空难道是我要的结果

爱给了我什么没沉沦就超脱

爱不能伤害我还是我没爱过

我没做错什么却把一切错过

你是爱不起我我也对不起我

不敢看你就尝试看破

别让伤口有机会发作

为小说剧情而惊心动魄

好证明泪腺还没有萎缩

没事了没事吗自爱得太寂寞

一身清白难道是我要的结果

爱给了我什么没沉沦就超脱

爱不能伤害我还是我没爱过

我没做错什么却把一切错过

你是爱不起我我也对不起我

爱偷走我什么没损失更失落

爱不能伤害我是福气还是祸

我没胆量犯错才把一切错过

你没能留住我我却对不住我

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

7:47 AM

i love cookie monster!

just watched "vampires suck" in LT's house.

the only word we can say:

SUCKS!!!!

I shld hav use that 1.5 hr to finish another 2 chapters of biochem

=.="'

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

4:45 PM

Good bye~~~

The world is not enough,
But it is such a perfect place to start.
And if you're strong enough,
Together, we can take the world apart.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

3:58 PM

10 things all single people must do
By Amy Spencer

1. Travel alone. Whether you’re trying to find your way through the Paris Metro or the London Underground, haggling over a painting in Mexico or choosing where to bed down in the Badlands, traveling by yourself builds a confidence you simply can’t get any other way. In an unfamiliar place, you have to make decisions by yourself, for yourself every day, which will build a self-reliance you’ll always treasure — even when you become part of a twosome.

2. Wallow in the ache of a broken heart. Oh, the pain. The agony. The pints of Ben & Jerry’s in front of the cable TV. Yep, getting dumped is beyond awful, but guess what? It’s the only way that you’ll develop the empathy you’ll need to be a better partner in a relationship. Because if you’re sensitive to the grief someone else has caused you, you’re less likely to do the same to anyone else. So, consider this painful milestone a lesson in karma that’ll serve you well as you travel through your dating days.

3. Spend a weekend with a married couple your age. On lonely nights, it’s common for single folk to envision marriage as a cozy scene from a classic film or mail-order catalog. But by spending 48 hours with a real couple, you’ll learn that in between the snuggling and pet names comes growling, bickering, silent treatments and maybe even a slammed door or two before they ultimately compromise. It will show you what married life is like, warts and all, so you won’t over-idealize the two-becomes-one phenomenon again.

4. Don’t come home all night. That’s right, wild thing. Crash on a friend’s couch, take your friends up on that offer of a last-minute trip… Once you have a mate, you can’t just take off on your own without explanation. And, truthfully, you won’t want to. So if you don’t have someone you have to call and check in with every few hours, take this opportunity to check out!

5. Stand up for a cause you care about. Whether you volunteer to help register voters for the next election (why not start early?) or convince your neighborhood or apartment complex to start recycling, get fired up over an issue while you have the time to devote to it. It will remind you that while, yes, finding your soul mate is pretty important, there are other issues at stake in the world that could use your help. And besides, the big-heartedness you’ll be cultivating is very attractive.

6. Have a real adventure. Learn to fly a plane, surf some big waves, or start your own business. Give yourself a thrill by doing something just for you, just for the experience — without having someone at home worrying about you or nagging you not to. Oh, and one more gift with purchase: Think about how much fun you’ll have telling your next date about your daring experience.

7. Learn how to take care of yourself. Being solo shouldn’t keep you from cooking for yourself, so learn how to make an impressive meal for one (even if it’s mac and cheese with your own added favorite extra thrown in). While you’re at it, learn how to back up your hard drive and sew on replacement buttons. You’ll feel strong and self-sufficient — and you’ll be armed with skills to share when you are in a relationship.

8. Buy something hugely impractical just because you love it. Once you’re in a relationship, you’ll start thinking about your partner before you purchase pricey items — not just “Will he or she hate it?” but “Is this where I want to be putting my money if we’re saving for a wedding?” The single life means a single bank account and an excuse to blow a wad of cash without (some of the) guilt. So, make yourself happy and buy something you crave, whether it’s an expensive vintage movie poster or a decked-out mountain bike.

9. Develop a hobby. Learn to woodwork, play acoustic guitar, speak French, DJ on turntables, or make digital short films for fun. Of course you can (and should) still have hobbies when you’re dating someone, but your solo time is prime time to devote yourself to something that makes life more interesting for you — and makes youmore interesting to others.

10. Be completely, utterly, wholly single for at least three months. Hopping wildly from one relationship to the next can do you a disservice. Why? Because you’re never more ripe for self-reflection than when you’re on your own — and the more you know yourself, the more likely you are to find someone who’s right for the real you.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

11:46 AM

巅峰 . 挣扎

现在是4.32am

我自然醒

而且很清醒

满脑子都是怎么calculate昨晚lab practical的enzyme activity

还有什么to –do-list 里的工作还没有做完，什么email还没有send

还有什么没packed进要回jb的包包

所以, 我起身换了床单

还是超清醒

我知道, 我完蛋了

终于冲上巅峰

23年来，忙碌的巅峰

原来忙，真的可以这么忙

6.15起床到12睡觉的17.75个小时里

我的大头里面的脑细胞没有休息过

开始觉得休息很奢侈

看了两次医生，喉咙还是痛，鼻子还是blocked

工作时为了保持清醒，我没有喝cough mixture

咳啊咳啊，咳到很习惯了

工作量多到有一点想跟老板讨加薪

最怕就是有同事赞我人很好

因为下一秒他们就会脸皮很厚的找我帮忙

死人电话响不停

午餐用吞的

因为该死的义顺离学校“不是那么得靠近”，我连上课前买面包的时间都没有了

10.20pm放学, 开始挣扎要吃晚餐？还是不吃?

吃了很肥很肥

不吃很奇怪很奇怪, 因为爱韵不skip meal

11.00pm挣扎要做功课还是跟媛姐姐一起看台湾龙卷风

看它的剧情还能不能更夸张:p

挣扎要换工还是不换工

开始明白大家为什么一直怨公司不讨好薪水低，但还是继续埋头做

因为真的有感情

当然不是对死人老板有感情

但就是有不知不觉的感情与责任感在拉着我

看到了我梦想的动物园vacancy

又开始挣扎

去动物园比去义顺还远

有必要这样虐待自己吗？

会不会被大象欺负到不能准时下班去上课

挣扎到要死...

钱不够用的level也到了巅峰

开始怨为什么我要自己缴学费

看到家里某人用钱像流水，却没有一丝丝想要分担我的学费的问候

又开始挣扎

靠自己吧郑爱韵

Bonus我爱你

**********************************

我真的想撑一撑

看看我是不是能撑到毕业

我想看看郑爱韵的极限在哪里

看看会不会我用脑过量而休克

看到classmates还安然无恙

大家已经默默的接受final year的变态

我就相信我还可以撑的

我还是会挤时间见家人babies和朋友

还是会回jb

因为我是天平座的郑爱韵

我的动力从你们来

（不要吐）

现在是5.12am

应该去试一试能不能睡

虽然我还是很清醒...

P.S. 这么忙，还是没有瘦下来T.T

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

5:41 AM

Look.

Look at the things that you are having now

Look at the people who are treating you as their family

Look at the shelter that is always there for you

** to love or not to love? **

It's alright.

It's alright to mad with someone you don't really like

It's alright to complaint about your life

It's alright to be emotional for the time being

** to hate or not to hate? **

Just don't forget.

What we left behind, and what we getting

You will realise how beautiful is the sky

** to hate or love is doesn’t matter now isn’t it? **

P.S. ahem* though i might love $ more than the sky lol

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

9:38 PM

我喜欢的沿途风景

你可能没感觉

所以才需要一起分享

我所谓的烦恼

你可能没办法体会

所以才需要诉苦

如果什么都不做，什么都不管

是不是多了时间，却错过了。。。陪伴?

多陪陪你爱的人吧 (:

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

9:38 AM

There's a difference between interest and commitment.

When you are interested in doing something, you do it only when circumstance permit.

When you are committed to something, you accept no excuses, only results.

So... it's time to get rid of those lousy EXCUSES :))))))))

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

7:13 PM

因为最近初恋红豆冰很红

因为阿林的辩论卡

因为Pn. Ong竟然有fb account

还有因为最近提到的那个让我害怕斜坡十多年的新山一日游

我突然想办一个不会让我跌倒到裙翻起来的一日游 ^^

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早上9点到世纪花园的草场看男生打篮球，

然后全部一日游的团员一字排开，最好是七人，

不停绕着篮球场走，手脚一定要协调，抬高呈90度，

跟着爱团长和橙小姐的口号，不停绕场到11点。

走到对面住家跟auntie买条冰棒，然后继续看男生打篮球。

12点到Hutan Bandar吃午餐。

一定要坐在最右手边的位置, 点什么？

ah moi~~ nak order? roti kosong, roti telur, roti bawang, roti sardine, roti tisu??? Nasi ayam, mee soto, meehoon soto, mee rebus??? Limau Ais, Teh Ais, Teh O Ais, Ais Kacang???

想到你要点什么了吗？

吃了午餐，搭巴士到city square, 绕每一层楼1到2圈，

然后再roibo 喝泡沫奶茶，

如果这个时候午餐已经消化了，就能点一串鱼圆/curry puff来解馋。

随便聊聊，看看经过的小弟弟小妹妹，

坐上1到2个小时，然后再搭巴士到plaza pelangi.

到大众/新欣书局，选购可爱文件夹，藤井树还有周杰伦的作品，

如果你要看看SPM参考书, 爱团长不会阻止你，而且还会颁奖给你。

最后，再坐同一辆巴士，到47, jalan songkit 2, taman sentosa.

爱妈妈会煮爱心晚餐

咖喱鸡+炸肉丸给你吃 =)

你。。。要报名吗？？？

P.S. 终于知道我们为什么会那么“大只”O.O

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

4:26 PM

This is why i NEED to stop buying clothes n hav dinner at town...

http://monsterd.wordpress.com/2010/03/30/iphone-rumoured-features-continues-to-fan/

too many rumours abt iphone 4G

i hope this is one is the real one =D

it's just so COOL!!!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

10:01 AM

有多长的时间，明明醒着，却像是睡着的

“不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心”

这一次，美梦又再一次醒了

该是时候了

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

11:29 PM

after worked for ~~ 2yrs.

today is the 4th time kena caught by him!!!
b4 my memory deteriorated, I MUST NOTE IT DOWN:

"now I know why u guys having problem in losing weight, bcoz ppl like YOU will find any reasons not to exercise, and ppl like US wil find many reasons to exercise."

eh eh eh u are just so mean =.=

and ur scolding speech is always changing, u hav creativity indeed (in scolding).

ok ok from now onwards i will use the staircase, if i nv lose weight, 我做鬼来找你 ~~~~

我要一步一步往上爬~~~~~~

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

8:21 AM

kopi siew dai $0.70

Thai Massage 200baht

dslr RM4000+

nice people? priceless.

u will be cherished!~~~

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

10:38 AM

just left my office....

bcoz my lovely big boss chased me out from office.

not bcoz i finished my work =S

i miss pattaya, bangkok, YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU and YOU already =(

***************************************************************************

today my colleague helped me to laminate something

i simply thank her by doin tis pose

...

O.O i think i miss uncle mcdonald too

KhobKhunKha~~~

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

9:01 PM

i thought that there's nothing to pack
i thought that i can complete the itinerary in two nights
i thought that i hav enough cash to bcum a shopping spree
i thought that self-OT can complete all my outstanding tasks at work
i thought that clearing office emails can be an easy job for me
i thought that i can be helpful to others so that life can be easier for everyone
i thought that i can eat 5 rounds in salad buffet last night
i thought that if i using bbcream only my complexion can looks better
i thought that stop buying laneige i can be richer
i thought that if i upload less photos in fb can makes my life looks not so happening
i thought that saying NO can be very easy

i was wrong
end up with dissapointment of myself.

什么都做不好？

nth is perfect? seems nth to happy with at this moment

but i shall feel fortunate as i stil able to worry about all these "small" matters.
while somewhere in this world ... some ppl may not even hav food or water to survive
oh im so optimistic :S
dono why im so random today. hahahahahahah maybe im Goin MAD

while typing this entry... my boss came over to ask me OT til 8pm tonite O.O
a very "funny" lo hei dinner with drs.
im gonna eat my 4th yusheng in this cny!!!
maybe i will dream of yusheng chasing me with knife tonite

*fighting with TIME*
it's 11 am alridi !!!!!!
taking 3 days leave at the busiest period at work
GOD BLESS :(

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

9:05 AM

叫我郑俗辣！！！

"You leave me SPEECHLESS"

3:20 PM